Introduction

Hello and welcome to Ambiguous Identity. My name is Ruth Ann Dye. I created this blog as a means of sharing my most inner thoughts and ideas. My entire life I have always been drawn to writing about my life's experiences and found pleasure in being able to take the over analytical, critical, curious, rational responses which consume my mind and be able to put them on paper. By doing so I create a tangible way of understanding life and the realities happening around me. 5 or 6 years ago I allowed my thoughts to carry on in my mind and slowly began leaving behind my one true way of expressing my inner self. Writing became a part of my past and I denied any opportunity to express myself. In doing so I feel I lost myself. I blamed the fact that I had conformed to a life of tedious routine and left behind a comfort which I feel kept me sane. Well not anymore. Something huge has happened in my life now, something tragic and life changing. I can no longer deny the over whelming feeling I once had to express myself in ways deeper then self meditation. And so here it is, my ambiguous identity, a chronicling of who I was, who I am and the long arduous search of who I am meant to be. I will include history, and responses to current events, as well as the challenges life has brought upon me and my ways of dealing with them. I hope other people might find some of themselves in the trials I face and will perhaps learn how to deal or not deal with them.